Lolita times today. That purikura machine better fucking be fixed.

I kinda want to take new doll pics but...bluh. I have so much old crap I never uploaded, hence the spam of creepy dolls.

I need to mature so fucking bad it's sickening. I thought I was ok outside of my childish hobbies but OH NO. Moving to some fucktard house on the prairie will do me some good as I won't socialize much. BROOD BROOD BROOD is what I'll do apart from sewing, dolls and being surrounded by nature [all thins I don't really care for AT ALL].

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Having someone love you has to be one of the worst things in life. I feel so utterly useless, worthless and undeserving of it all. How the fuck anyone could WANT to devote any of themselves to me I'll never understand.

I'm not really sure if that phone call was the end or not but fuck was it painful. Nobody should have to cry over an asshole like me and blame themselves.

I am far too immature for a relationship. It requires one to think of another first and hold them dear and...I just FAIL at that.

I always knew I was bitter, selfish, childish and spiteful but holy HELL I never realized how bad I was until I got into a relationship. I swear I have two personalities constantly bickering in my skull and it pisses me off how fickle and confused I can be : /